Now or Never

Just like everyday, there was an argument. She was determined to not retort to him."Saying anything would only harm our relationship.' She always kept mum thinking it to be the only right way to approach the issue.

Today was not different, she was determined even now, to not utter a word against any filthy accusation made t her. "Maintaining silence is a sign of dignity', She kept repeating to herself. She was hurting herself in the process. The volcano of her emotions was on the verge of a breakout.

She was accused again, and at this moment she gave up. She broke the promise made to herself. Something triggered her. "Is my Silence being misunderstood?", She questioned herself.

For the first time in all these years, she realised she has to stood up for herself. It's now or never.....She went on and on. She had suppressed all the emotions within herself. She had to free herself from her fears. She had to face the reality.

This was the moment when she realised, She had absolutely nothing to lose. She was free from all the lies and from the fear of losing her 'true self'.

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13 reasons why

I remember, a few months back, one of my cousins recommended me this web series. I nodded my head in order to give an affirmative response in her direction. In my mind, I pictured it to be just another teenage drama. How it could even interest me, I wondered.

Fast forward to the present day, to my surprise I found myself hooked on to this series. As you must have figured out from the title, I'm talking here about Netflix's, '13 Reasons why'. The show is an adaptation of a novel by Jay Asher that goes by the same name. 

First of all let me make this clear, I am neither going to rate this show nor going to spoil the story for you. I'm writing about how it had an impact on me.  

The story of the show revolves around one person and how and why she has to take some extreme steps in her life. I will not be going into the details of the story over here. You will have to watch it for yourself or if possible read the book. You will get to revisit all the places in your past, the good, the bad & the ugly. 

It will remind you about the times you judged someone without knowing their end of the story or it could also be the other way around. Or It might remind you of the times when you were bullied at school ( It did that to me) or when you watched someone get bullied and never did anything about it or also if you were the one that  bullied  others ( time for some redemption, I guess :P ) ; also those times when you questioned the purpose of your existence. 

Someone had told me once, ' Now that I've lost the most amazing people to life, life doesn't amuse me much. It doesn't feel the same without them.' I realise now what he actually meant. It will remind you of all those people in life that you let go of, also those who left you mid-way to figure out everything on your own.

It questions a lot of things in today's world. The way we deal with our problems, our dependency on social media for everything and how it is making us feel empty from the inside. How we could ruin someone knowingly or unknowingly. 

We all could be on the either side of this story, those who hurt others or those who get hurt and those who like to keep their problems to themselves. It makes us think about so many issues that we choose to ignore conveniently & also about the things that affect us.  And whether or not we should be talking to someone about such things. 

It is not just about how the story affects us in general but how we sometimes tend to ignore the problem itself, or how we end up giving ill advice to somebody without even thinking about what consequences it might trigger. How wrong we are when we presume things, when we presume people & judge their notion. We have to remember that, we cannot always be right about everything and everyone around us.

It so rightly depicts how and in what way our words could affect someone. The story is narrated and filmed beautifully. Those 13 reasons will definitely change something about you. It will leave you with so many questions, the answers of which you've to figure out on your own.  

Flawed & beautiful !

 What's wrong with being flawed?

 Isn't life all about embracing

 your scars and not just

 yearning for perfection ?

Poles Apart

She was a dreamer,
He was a realist,

She loved her imperfections,
While he urged to correct them,

Her eyes were always true to him,
While his insecurities did not believe her claims,

She thought he was her Mr. Right,
But he proved her wrong each time.

Dancing Soul !

Grey clouds, Earthy scent,
noise of the heavy pour,
all this at once,

Storm of thoughts is clear now
& my soul is dancing !!!

The Storyteller !

No scribbled notes nor a writing pad of her own,

Yet everyday, she manages to mesmerize everyone

with the stories from her memory palace.

The Detour!

My heart was transfixed.
to the memories of our past,

Can't believe how it has left behind,
all the hurt that you've caused,

The mind keeps going back there, so often,
I don;t know why and how,
But I'm sure, I want to be in the now,

I no more want to revisit,
the loop of those dark times,

I'd rather take a detour,
from all the pain and lies.

Something borrowed

Not so long ago, a storm came knocking on my door,
It shuffled my life, to the core,

I whined for a while, seeing how things had turned around,

I lost almost everything,
Yet in the nothingness,
everything was what I had found,

Days passed and turned into years,
as I learned to dive through the storms of sorrow,
A little faith was all that I had to borrow. :)

Safe haven!

Memories of some people are so imprinted on our mind,
that it refuses to forget their absence.

Life goes on, as it is supposed to be and the mind opts to
keep them safe in the heart.

Pursuit of dreams

Dreams, for which you are ready to risk everything and some more,

Dreams, that have the power either to make you or break you,

Dreams, that give you an adrenaline rush and a meaning to your being,

Ain't such dreams worth chasing?

Wounded warriors

Maybe, some wounds aren't supposed to heal completely.

Maybe, it is supposed to stay that way.

It is supposed to hurt us every now and then;

only to make us stronger with each passing day.

In a way, we all are wounded warriors waging a war against time.

Be my Dreamscape ! :)

Long chats, high-fives & crazy laughs,

freshly brewed coffee by our side,

With every sip of coffee,

we get lost into each other,

As the night passes by we try to gather

the broken pieces of each other's souls,

No judgements and no prejudice,

Just two people listening to each other,

It's almost dawn now & we are still

drowning in each other's eyes,

You're smiling for no reason while

counting the empty coffee mugs,

I realise how beautifully you hugged

my flaws & made me feel home,

All I want now is you &

I want you to be my dreamscape! :)

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Trust the odds !

The 'Sorry' cycle

Some people possess so much hate within them, that they talk without having any empathy towards anyone...which eventually leads to a lot of pain for others. And then, they say sorry and expect forgiveness from others. It may seem right to even forgive such a person for once. But, people have a habit of repeating the pattern. First- mess up everything, then- say sorry (If only that crosses your mind), then- everything will go back to normal for a while & **ta-daa**- you come up with your next mess up. The cycle continues!  

How can one even expect to be forgiven every damn time? One should realise how important it is to mind yourself. I agree, everyone has their opinions. But don't give your opinions unless asked for. At least, think before whatever you utter. For you it may seem nothing but it could have an impact on others. A little empathy towards fellow humans would be of great help in such case. 

People that you have in your life can leave you without giving any short notice. So, it is equally important to nurture your relations. 'Sorry' should not be the word that you use just to sort out the mess. The mess, that you've created in the first place. But when you say these words, it should come from your heart. Mean it or don't say it.

Give respect to get some. Period!

The Chase

She stood there staring at him as he was shouting at her.

This wasn't the first time for this. They often had moments of disagreement. 

He never failed to raise his voice whenever that happened. Like always, She 

would chase him after their fights. Eventually, everything would get back to 

normal.

Still lost in her thoughts, She realised how clear was her mind this time.

There was no point in arguing. And absolutely no need to sort things out. 

She sighed as he left the room & her life.

The chase was finally over.